The trip was wonderfull. I so loved seeing everyone I got to see again. I've missed everybody dearly. Noah was so into me this time it was wonderfull. He and I have been getting along so great. I so love having him in my life, he's such a great kid. Though we've now got a huge decision to make. We've been talking about putting the wedding off a year like Bethany's family has been suggesting. The idea is bonding time and responsibility building on my part. Now the problem. Where? If I'm up there I get the family bonding, but I'm afraid of being out of practice with what I'm learning now if I wait a year to put it to use. Also there will be less reason for Noah to visit my family in the south if I'm up there which means it will take longer for that bonding. But no matter where we live the trips will likely not be as often as we like anyway. Plus it means extra moving, which is a pain but not a crutial concern. If I stay down here it means less bonding which is terrible. The main plus is practicing right away before I forget things and building up a basis for my future financial stability. Also I might have a decent place I'm renting for the family by the time of the marriage. The visiting though will be difficult and costly. I have also started thinking in terms of half a year one place and half in another. Bethany wasn't so sure about this but seemed willing to entertain it for discussion. The big problem with that is where first? If I stay here first I get that imediate practice for a few months so I have been through the motions. Unfortunately how likely will I find and employer that will have me back after a half a year break or one that only needs me for half a year? Plus there is the dual renting issue that crops up no matter which one comes first. If I go up there first that means that the second half of the year is also partialy getting things set up for the more perminant basis I'm going for to bring the family into. No matter which route I take there are major drawbacks and a few positives. I am really lost on this and it's stressing me out. Positive note: Season 3 starts today | 
